The following blog is an account of the dream I had two days after my husband and I decided to divorce. Life with him was an emotional and financial roller coaster, when all I wanted was a steady train ride through the hills. The dream reassured me that I had made the right decision.
I am standing at the edge of a frozen lake, contemplating whether to walk across the ice in order to get to the other side. As I ponder my decision, a voice reassures me; " It's OK, It's OK, don't worry, TRUST me".
I step onto the ice and proceed to walk, heading straight down the center. A few hundred yards in, I notice a layer of water forming on the surface of the ice, making me feel uneasy. I stop walking and stand still, wondering if I should carry on. The voice returns; " It's OK, It's OK, don't worry, TRUST me". I carry on.
Halfway across, the ice begins to crack. I stop abruptly and begin to feel panic. As the fine cracks meander across the ice, the voice reassures me once again; " It's OK, It's OK, don't worry, TRUST me".
Suddenly, the ice opens up below my feet and I drop into the cold water. Shear panic overtakes me as I splash around, thrashing the water with my arms and grabbing at brittle bits of ice. The more I panic, the less I am able to keep my head above the water. The fear of drowning is very real. The voice becomes scrambled and noisy. I no longer listen.
Just as suddenly, calm comes over me while I tread softly in the water. My attention turns to the melting pieces of ice in my hands, then at the shore from where I began my journey. The water is so peaceful over there. I look into my hands, then throw the remaining bits of melting ice away and say; "I don't need this; I can swim!", then swim all the way back to shore.
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